If Only 2002
by DR Varg
I've often wished I could return
to Autumn '95;
so many details, I'd then change
if did, that chance, arrive!
I'd listen so much better;
ev'ry word of hers, I'd clutch!
I'd focus on her feelings. Oh!
I missed so very much!
The wish is just so strongly felt;
that second chance, to get!
Those damned distractions, tossed aside--
just focus on Colette!
it's all just been a dream!
and '95 is here today!
How great that thought does seem!
'Cuz then I'd reach my long sought goal
to fix up and erase
the blunders. Wouldn't that be Grande
if this indeed, took place!
She'd thus be drawn to stay upon
the path that, walked on, we.
That other course, she'd disregard;
she'd pass it--leave it be!
And with some changes on my part,
seems we'd get o'er the cliff.
But suddenly this thought appeared;
I pondered then "What if..."
...could be her course was meant to be
and wasn't just because
of my distracted focus--which
brought forth so many flaws!
Her course perhaps, I couldn't change;
'twas destined to intrude!
Would I desire then t'repeat
the chaos which ensued?
Oh! '96--so fret filled!
Didn't seem t'would ever end.
'Twas such a struggle to address;
such woe with, to contend!
And yes, I managed through it but
t'was one pain filled ordeal!
And for so long, I never thought
I'd e'er get through; or heal!
Each day was such a trial to face;
my sense of loss immense!
But with His help and guiding hand,
...survived the turbulence.
And where I am's so blessed
in comparison to then;
So, am I grateful for this state?
Indeed I am. Amen!
the place where I'm now, at.
It once was far off--distant;
I am there. Thank God for that!
So, would I now agree to go;
return back if I could?
I think my answer's changed to: "No!"
Right here's so very good!
So fin-a-lly, the wish to have
that era to be re-lit
is settled, as I'm glad I'm here
and grateful I can feel it.
David R. Varg (3-01-02)
