Ten PM 2002
by DR Varg
The year is new; a threshold crossed;
I've made it through this door!
My wish was: now it's time to feel
her impact on me: o'er.
She was so bright as last year waned;
but this, I did expect.
The one year anniver-sar-y
of loss has this effect.
So, she was present constantly
as last year peaked and closed
but I accepted this. And so
upon, din't feel imposed.
I gave her the attention
she requested and compelled;
...and thought, "Now! this'll do it--
she'll be settled; she'll be quelled! "
But she's not absent, missing;
she does visit still, my skull.
The time we shared, then vivid;
not a mem'ry distant--dull!
And it can then seem start'ling;
"Will this never ever pass?"
"When will this all be over?"
"And I'm through with it, Alas?"
But losses aren't like puzzles;
"When's the final piece in place?"
and the bumps we just must face!
But, yes! it helps to recollect
the hurdles, we've addressed;
review the cliffs, which have been climbed
and now are fine; at rest!
And recognize those hills were once
an obstacle so great!
but now are leveled; orderly;
no more, upon my plate!
and it will find those, too
which seem today, this heavy weight--
ya just can not subdue!
And it's consoling, this to sense.
It helps us yes! to cope!
There's evidence we've gotten through;
which does encourage hope!
I wrote about the impact strong
which struck like clockwork when
I was at home and saw the clock;
And Oh! it now was ten!
"But now, when home at ten P.M.
the phone is ever still."
"It just seems right for Col to call.
I guess it always will!"
I never thought that it would pass;
when that time didn't ROAR
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But it does that no more!
Today, I sensed and recognized;
this impact disappeared.
I hadn't felt the loss in years
when ten PM; it neared!
A fine example this should be;
I never should forget
that painful states get worked through, yes!
And, peaceful states are met!
David R. Varg (1-3-02)
