This Year by DR Varg |
submerged and had been lost!
So many paths, I couldn't face
I've headed t'wards and crossed!
Three years--just looked the other way;
sights pain-filled one ignores!
But now I've held them once again.
I've walked through long-closed doors!
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Alas! They're settled, so!
I feel I'm finding them a home.
Then, onward I can go.
The town I lost, is now again
a place where I can gaze!
I couldn't face it for so long;
'tis fine now, in this phase!
I walked the roads in her hometown
('twas hers in '95)
which we enjoyed so often when
our love was so alive!
I just enjoyed the trip!
The mem'ries of those strolls we took
was all that I did grip!
I visited the sights we saw
on our Psalm Sunday ride.
The Gen'ral's home, the swaying bridge,
the scenic trail beside
the ocean on the shore of Maine,
the church we did attend.
I saw it all; relived the joy
contained in that weekend.
I visited the oval where
we walked all through the night.
The Cancer Relay; held right here!
'twas such a moving sight!
we shared so very much.
Each episode revisited...
a blessed thing to touch!
Those scenes we jointly did observe;
are joy-filled now, to see!
Where once, they triggered emptiness
and brought such hurt to me
they now inspire gratefulness!
The gift they were, I sense!
I welcome and invite them all;
this change, so vast--immense!
The way it was, I did describe
in Picnic, Taco Bell
I saw the sights, we two had shared;
my mood then tumbled, fell!
But now, when time we shared, is sparked;
where once 'twould just bring woe,
I sense the prize our union was
and happiness does flow!
This switch Oh! what a blessed one!
My load, so huge a weight
is pleasing to be bearing;
what a diff'rence now, this state!
It feels like I can walk again,
when so long, I was lame!
So, why not dance? The option's there!
...am grateful that it came!
and this, once more's been found!
The blessing, I at last, can feel;
where once, I just had frowned!
And lo! what was the key to this
renewal in my heart?
Her life--it ended!
...Can't ignore, such was a major part!
This key di'nt seek, request or long.
This state occurred--it's there!
But it's effect, impacting was;
it's moved me, I'm aware!
She lives now only in our hearts!
Her touch, though, still is real.
And when she's stirred; a gift it is;
it's cherished, I now feel!
Attaining peace and settledness,
should be revered, indeed!
Assistance comes from many prods;
a death can be the seed.
There's one more spot, I'm seeking, though!
I hope one of these fall days,
her grave to visit, t'let her know,
"Colette, I'll love you always!"
But there's one obstacle I face;
impeding, yes! my visit.
I want to view this hallowed place,
but still I ask, "where is it?"
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