Forming A Circuit

Forming a circuit
absent a purpose
Like lingering here
or could disappear

Fixing my motors
have a pretty crash
Vanity reaching
blow down
last chance

Paint your dark smile with surprise
Slide slowly back in the dull light
Headed back onto tomorrow
Wondering will I
choke or swallow

Revving the engine
angling for priesthood
Sucker you all in
any tired soul would

Crossing some bloodline
don't worry, no
Euphoria
shallow ride
We've climbed and lost before

Slim hand reaches
up into the sky
Memories bloat
desirous eye

Pretty to kiss
fixing a figure
Dead end nearing--
might have missed her

Verses, verses
crawling through
purpose, purpose
was nothing new
Pretty shine
you're putting on strong
Little sigh
weight still to come

Acquainted

I know something

Of the questions asked at the pearly gates and

I’m acquainted

With the world I’ve come to love and hate but

I have no faith

In the human race or their current state of affairs

And I’m under whelmed with this mortal realm we live in

What price freedom

If you can’t even walk down a city street after

Night falls guns drawn

In the airt there’s the smell of something sweet from

Pool halls gang wars

And a dead street soldier lies at my feet in the rain

And I’m getting down, in this one horse town we live in

And I’m under whelmed with this mortal realm we live in

Professional Odd Best Friend

Can I send you pictures all day
Can I write to you with nothing to say
Can I be around when I needn't be
Can I talk to you to feel I'm free

Do you think as much
Have some time to lend
I'm ready to be your
Professional Best Friend

What kind of song do you have in mind
I'm listening to you make me unwind
What are you wishing so hopefully
I'm along to ride, cue it up and see

Do you think as much
Have a song to send
I wanna be your
Professional Best Friend

Let's be an accident coming awake
Make something strange mean through mistake
Who is to please but us and no one
We may be overheard having our fun

You don't drink as much
You're known not to bend
Our differences
Made us best friends
Professional Odd Best Friends
Professionally Proven Friends

Id Junkie

Suck on the poison
Anything to taste
Bite down hard
Anyone will break
Twist with this one
Come sick on that
Cloudy eyes glow
Close up the past

Everything
defeats me
Everything
needs me
Every one
makes me suffer
Won't ever be another

Think you might stop now
looking so lonely
Choke you might cry out
Stand for the stoning
Rite for a hater
looking so lovely
Take up your cause, go
add up to nothing

Every move missed
makes me suffer
Faces escaping
crowd one another
Takes all my time
(wasting)
To keep on trying

Better You

can i get the better of you
before you take all of me
i should be careful
always offering

want you all the time
get down or up
want a free ride
past just enough

i'd like to kill time
get on something sure
i have things to share
have a sickness to cure

feeling wooden no good
cut tragic and cheap
throwing stones from glass
you're the one to keep

sad eyes' contest
dull wit parade
we wash over
we make it away
we've gotten clean
can't stay that way

Sorry Dad

So close to the signal

Can’t tune it in

Far-flung reception fine

Second cousins well informed

Father’s things not mine

Long distance provides

Details of parent’s lives

Live under their nose

Unknown to you it goes

The closer in

The more I’m blind

I don’t mean to be unkind

I never will

Be able to

Pass on the stories of my mind

I should have asked when there was time

I’m not that way is all I find

Why can’t I look into his eye

And know the limits of the sky

Like finding out

That things outside

Had passed while you were suicide

Blue and Rough

Facts are facts
and that is that
I'd rather be drunk than sober
Sex and death
are all that's left
What else is there to hope for?

I give up
I say so what
The Devil gets hold of my hands
They were just
gathering dust
weren't a big part of my plans

Someone's gotta be blue and rough
Someone's gotta feel they're not getting enough
Someone's gotta belong nowhere
Someone's gotta make it happen there

Outside I am
where I began
I don't want in I'm not that strong
I need to
get done, get through
I've been the same way for too long

I look hard
I swear I do
Can't look far
without seeing through
Nothing happens
I can't explain
I can't let up
Can't give anything

Make the road quicker, won't you
give me a leg up, out
Free me from what I'm bound to
There's nothing I am about

Breathe It In

Walls of rain
Shadowed rooms
left unknown
For love of ruins

Down past tired
Long known sick
All slides easy
Let go of it

Laze in deep
Quiet skin
Slide up close
Breathe it in

The sky is done
The ground filled up
The rumored world
taken from us
The stars all hung
(and) strangled above
Our eyes all wrong
never opened up

Not to Be Confused With Love

When I see her I get happy

Deep inside me something happens

Sweaty palms and pumping heartbeat

Clumsy words and awkward topics

Someday I will overcome this feeling I get…which is

Not to be confused with love

All my friends think I am crazy

They don’t know how much she move me

All they see is my reaction

When she waltzes past my window

Someday I will overcome this feeling I get…which is

I Don't Know How To Live

I'm in no web you want to be
I take no time to hold, to see

I know how to haunt my head
That's a long way
from living instead

I poll for bodies
for resistance suspended
Rail against everyone I haven't invented

I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live

I hone it hard on a grindstone
Making nothing but calloused bones

Can't build your altar step by stone
Can't leave my crown or lose my throne

I spill out smiles
I hold out hope
I turn back hard
I cease and close

I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live
I don't know how to live

Long As Days

Bone driven and bearing down
Hands and eyes scraping round
Soon like sin and here in your hair
Answers discarded in thickening air

Pretending complaining
makes more what I'm saying
Steady like chains welcome of weight
Limbless bodies drag smiles past my face

Fixed mouth torture tongue game
Clamp you on fast to frame
Carry like lessons muted proof
Coughing out warnings late cancelling youth

Rich fantasy
life of a cripple
One hand still in
wanting just a little
Mercenary
push pull sway
Left with eyes
long as days

Melting Through the Bed

I touched you in an ordinary way

The dreams beneath your conscious mind begin to fade

And soon you’re melting through the bed that you just made

Another clock another life another day

The permeation of the life you want to save

Can’t stop you rushing from the cradle to the grave

And up above our heads the sky’s releasing rain

A cold reflection in your eyes can’t hide the pain

A sentimental version of the trust you will betray

A dove descends to land upon a crystal bay

You give me strength to be the hero of the day

And soon you’re melting through the bed that you just made

Crystal ocean blue/right in front of you/too afraid to go in

Agitated mind/not the friendly kind/takes you out for a spin

Friends that frown on you/still remaining true/through the thick and the thin

No more writer’s block/hope this helps a lot/still succumbing to sin

Magic Number

too long by four
too dull by more
short of pills
short of smoke
not strong as seems
passions winding rope

interest has gone
like the best ones
staring for love
glass eyes to dawn
cut your losses down
once missing not found

corpse loved building
sleek and sallow
poison thrilling
thick and shallow
own hands are the ones
closed eyes horizons

excuse to go
everything shows
where else where?
one thing we know
born all one way
going by choice
if you need it
when you know

reflect on me
might have been
might have been
but temper too short
the walls break in
break in...